The day I finally realise..
Yesterday sealed another milestone in my career..(nope, I haven't submitted the whole FY1 assessment which is due in 2 weeks time).
Yesterday make me realise why I become a doctor. Had to speak with relatives whose family is dying. Yes, breaking bad news. Not my first one, but it is a very memorable one. I feel very sad. The BBN went down very well; I think because my team have prepared the family for what might be the eventual event. I even prepared them about the legal issues about death certificate, coroner and funeral arrangement. The staff nurse is very kind indeed. She said,"You are a wonderful doctor". And her statement makes me want to wept.
Horrible isn't it? Doctor the demon. The hope crusher. But that is real life. My ward is very depressing at the moment because a lot of them come in with ailmentsss that we cannot cure. Symptomatic relief and supportive treatment, yes. But not cure.
Sometimes I have this sinister feeling that what we are doing is prolonging life that should have end a long time ago.
Yesterday make me realise why I become a doctor. Had to speak with relatives whose family is dying. Yes, breaking bad news. Not my first one, but it is a very memorable one. I feel very sad. The BBN went down very well; I think because my team have prepared the family for what might be the eventual event. I even prepared them about the legal issues about death certificate, coroner and funeral arrangement. The staff nurse is very kind indeed. She said,"You are a wonderful doctor". And her statement makes me want to wept.
Horrible isn't it? Doctor the demon. The hope crusher. But that is real life. My ward is very depressing at the moment because a lot of them come in with ailmentsss that we cannot cure. Symptomatic relief and supportive treatment, yes. But not cure.
Sometimes I have this sinister feeling that what we are doing is prolonging life that should have end a long time ago.
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