just few things to get off my chest

- First time went a mortuary to certified L's death. Horrible place (if I die, I want to be buried ASAP). Looking at L's face, i feel she died with a broken heart.. After all that she has gone through to battle the disease (cardioesophagectomy + chemo), and come back 2 months later with new extensive mets, its just too much.

- B passed away 2 weeks after major surgery complications - sepsis. Is it her smoking? God only knows. Her words while i clerked her echoed to my memory - " I don't need the registrar to tell me again about the complications, my chest etc...to me 95% success rate is good enough".

Aren't we lucky to be alive?