Please don't make me feel bad
I have become less and less happy to tell my London colleagues (medics and non-medics)that I choose to work outside London.Somehow they make me feel that I am making a wrong career decision. I know I am not.
So unhappy that when Prof. Kumar complimented my history taking and notes writing,it fails to cheer me up. I smiled though (but my heart still feels heavy).
I know my heart is not in London anymore, I have stopped wanting to be here - I want to go somewhere else. I yearn for a bit of country side and fresh air. Here, every where I stare are buildings, buses, and cars. I used to live with my grandfather and grandmother in a paddy field village, and it has been one of the best time in my life. I still remember the feeling of freedom and free when I cycle as fast as I can in the jungle path. No one care if you are wearing a branded clothes or watches like in the city, we all just want have a good time - fishing, cycling, picking fruits.
Working in London is seriously busy (by admission of a SHO Dundee graduate working in London) - most PRHO work really hard, sometimes go home at 12 midnite (since need to clear all the backlogged documentation), and have to turn up 8 am the next morning. Patients are not always friendly, well, prepare for a huge load of drunken antics, stabbing, victims of attack, and overdose when doing on-call. Some of them have difficulty understanding any English at all. - I remember try taking history from this Viatnamese woman and her rather unhelpful son. Patients are often a lot more sicker (almost like in 3rd world countries, honest!).
Don't get me started on living costs in this city.
So unhappy that when Prof. Kumar complimented my history taking and notes writing,it fails to cheer me up. I smiled though (but my heart still feels heavy).
I know my heart is not in London anymore, I have stopped wanting to be here - I want to go somewhere else. I yearn for a bit of country side and fresh air. Here, every where I stare are buildings, buses, and cars. I used to live with my grandfather and grandmother in a paddy field village, and it has been one of the best time in my life. I still remember the feeling of freedom and free when I cycle as fast as I can in the jungle path. No one care if you are wearing a branded clothes or watches like in the city, we all just want have a good time - fishing, cycling, picking fruits.
Working in London is seriously busy (by admission of a SHO Dundee graduate working in London) - most PRHO work really hard, sometimes go home at 12 midnite (since need to clear all the backlogged documentation), and have to turn up 8 am the next morning. Patients are not always friendly, well, prepare for a huge load of drunken antics, stabbing, victims of attack, and overdose when doing on-call. Some of them have difficulty understanding any English at all. - I remember try taking history from this Viatnamese woman and her rather unhelpful son. Patients are often a lot more sicker (almost like in 3rd world countries, honest!).
Don't get me started on living costs in this city.
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