Becoming parents...

Lately, a lot of my friends have become parents. Me? My of my...

I think I am not really that "maternal" person. I vividly remember the first time I saw women in labour video in second year - my first instinct is "Oh my Lord, labour is soooo disgusting and painful and I don't want to do that. Ambik anak angkat pun takpe".Then, 2 years down the line, when I did my Obs & Gynae attachment, I know I did not enjoy being in labour ward. I truly enjoy the Gynaecology aspect though.

I remember I wait for 6 hours for the women to give birth, my migraine start kicking in. The headache so bad that I went to puke in the loo. I end up going back home because feeling unwell. The woman gave birth 3 hours later. I hate the lingering bloody "period" smell (haha, and I am a woman for god sake). I even consider elective Caesarean (if I want to give birth la), but thinking about the pain post-operatively gives me a shudder.

See, how "unmaternal" I am. I guess I still had a lot of growing up to do. Becoming parents is such a huge responsibility. I want to make sure we are mentally, emotionally and financially prepared to do that. I hope I will be a good parent who will always be there for their kids. I want to see them grow up and not missing important moments in their life. When I was growing up, there isn't much guide or support from my parents to help me combat my teenage years. We don't communicate that much.

My hubby & I have been talking about the possibility of trying to have kids in 1-2 years time down the line. Next August hopefully I will start my PRHO year. Am thinking if I have to work 13 hours per day, how much time, really, I will spend with my baby (if I am going to have one). Hmmm...