Lotus - surviving life & remaining pure to urself

Monday, July 19, 2010

Al-fatihah

I never met her, and yet her stories touched the depth of my heart. She passed away today.

http://onebreastbouncing.blogspot.com/

Reading this story, I do hope, I have provided the best care I can give to people I have treat, and I have lessened their pain and anger somehow along the way. Somehow my job is getting more and more into providing palliative care these days.

Thursday, July 08, 2010

Kitty




So damn cute!

She is going to be one spoilt kitten.

Saturday, July 03, 2010

Sigh

Lately I don't feel like I am saving life very much.

It starts to get rather depressing in the ward....so many metastatic and recurrent cancer that is beyond human capabilities to treat; and you know it starts to affect you when you really have to start to thinking about a good death, and having second thoughts.

Metastatic prostate cancers, metastatic stomach cancer,the supposed benign astrocytoma that failed to response to radiotherapy and even 3rd line chemotherapy,a ;young man with metastatic bowel cancer after cured 2 years earlier and needing nephrostomy tube, countless lung cancer (and i have a sinister feeling some of my treated pneumonia will reveal neoplasm and these people have performance status 3), bleeding brain tumour...and a number of neutropenic sepsis post-chemo....in the last 2 weeks alone. By the way, it is Acute Medicine Admission ward, not oncology ward.

The thing is if you find neoplastic in someone who is fit to undergo some kind of treatment, that is fine; but the really is, many of mine, are not. Have to say, a lot of respect to doctors who does Lung cancer clinic.