just few things to get off my chest

- First time went a mortuary to certified L's death. Horrible place (if I die, I want to be buried ASAP). Looking at L's face, i feel she died with a broken heart.. After all that she has gone through to battle the disease (cardioesophagectomy + chemo), and come back 2 months later with new extensive mets, its just too much.

- B passed away 2 weeks after major surgery complications - sepsis. Is it her smoking? God only knows. Her words while i clerked her echoed to my memory - " I don't need the registrar to tell me again about the complications, my chest etc...to me 95% success rate is good enough".

Aren't we lucky to be alive?

Tag

Se7en things that (will) scare me:
1. live to very old age
2. find your life meaningless and regret not doing things you can actually do in life
3. harm someone when i am doing my job
4. giving birth..ooo...pain
5. snakes, cacing
6. sing in front of audience
7. i fall and got lost track of my life, again

Se7en things I like the most:
1. my husband company
2. custard - comfort food
3. travel the world
4. when I am doing well in my job, and put a smile to my patients face
5. japanese food
6. music + tv. X-factor Andy & Brenda & Chico & Maria (in that order).
7. loyal friends

most important things in my room :
1. our bed
2. our duvet
3. a bottle of water
4. my husband
5. alarm clock


random facts about me:
1. i can be forgetful. that's why i have to write things down
2. i used to be very conscious about what people says about me. Now, a much older me, i couldn't care any less what people says, unless it is a constructive criticism, then i will take onboard. I have accepted that i can't make everybody happy.
3. i hate to worry about money.
4. i believe love is the most important thing in life. So love passionately! Even if you regret it later, you can still say i have live my life.
5. dance when i listen to music i love
6. little newborn babies make me cry/ teary eyed.They are so pure.
7. i like public transport.
8. i am blurrrrr......rely on cafeine to nail down my concentration

Se7en things I plan to do before I die:
1. to live in different parts of the world before settling down in one place with my husband(wherever in the world it would be)
2. have children and raise them gracefully
3. be a better person
4. to harmonise the situation in my two families
5. have our own business, be own boss!
6. contribute something to the society
7. be truly happy with my life

Se7en things I can do:
1. start saving money now for later travel
2. not being bitter/upset when something i plan/want fail. Life like that, isn't it?
3. bersyukur with what god has given us
4. can cook
5. can be on my own without feeling lonely
6. i can do gardening, when time permits of course
7. face my fears head on

things I can't do:
1. i cannot go shopping 7 days in a row like elly did!
2. cannot stand the roller coaster ride yang too scary. there is a limit for me.
3. sing in front of audience
4. be friendly to the horibble horrible ward clerks. So i don't speak to them unless it is very necessary and try be as polite and short as it can be.

words/statement I say the most:

1. yangggggggg......
2. alright
3. shit
4. what?
5. i want a cuddle/ a hug.
6. fuck (especially when my patience is tested)

Se7en celeb LIKES/crushes:
1. kylie minogue
2. angelina jolie...she is sooo hot
3. zhang zi yi
4. jennifer aniston
5. ANDY X-FACTOR. that's what i call a quality man!
6. lucy liu
7. j-lo

i can't do seven in some of them, hence the reason for alteration. Thanks elly!