Lotus - surviving life & remaining pure to urself

Tuesday, July 31, 2007

Moving on

Last day in A&E. Finish off my last patient with catheterisation with frank haematuria.

Bye bye Blackburn.So esctatic leaving A&E; couldn't stand the poor staffing level no more. having said that, I don't mind doing A&E; can probably do a locum from time to time but definitely not my career choice.Feel a tad said leaving Blackburn, has taught me many useful experiences.

Feel a bit apprehensive about starting at Royal Liverpool. Working in City Hospital, definitely will be different kind of experience.

Macam malas je nak pindah rumah ni.Nasib baik manchester - liverpool tak jauh. Cam shah alam ngan KL je.

Monday, July 23, 2007

Heels

I tend to get very cranky when I am tired. And I know it is the time when we tend to argue/disagree/fight.

Funny when all the anger dissipates as soon as it appears when he hugs/ making jokes/fail attempt to lift me or trying to bite me.

Also need to make a note: not to wear new high heels/wedges when browsing for properties.It makes me cranky and gets back pain.Also waste money because I always have to buy selipar as I couldn't walk properly back to the car and developed blisters after two hours wearing the heels/wedges.

Saturday, July 21, 2007

Lazy Saturday

Man,feel like such a lazy bitch today.

Exhausting day yesterday,looking for flat to rent in Liverpool. Rain pouring and it was cold. Me start to liking to Liverpool. Loves the markets, macam pasar borong cina with plenty of bargains. Excited, and also scared about starting work at Royal Liverpool. Working in city hospital is definitely different from working in district hospital..definitely going to miss Blackburn.

Love the Alberts Docks.I think this will be our future breakfast place for the weekends. Eat whilst looking at the sea, and can go to the Beatles museum afterwards.

Water can be so calming.

Tuesday, July 17, 2007

on leave, and having the pox

Get all this bloody itchy rashes on my last A&E night shift. At first, I thought nothing, probably viral rashes and come morning, its looking more like chicken pox.Bloody hell.On my leave and getting the pox. Literally cursing my last contact with someome who has shingles.

The bizarre thing is I am not feverish or ill at all; apart from this crazy itch blistering erythematous rashes. Definitely not scabies (I did check with my senior doc). Probably to do with me having chicken pox as a child, I definitely already have the antibody against Varicella Zoster (checked).

Completely ruined all my plans for my leave.How on earth am I going to move house?Altho' quite grateful that I don't have to present in our Trust audit meeting.

Monday, July 02, 2007

Update

I supposed nothing much to update except for the fact we are now looking for places to live in Liverpool.Haven't got time yet to look for house/flat - as usual, its work.

Today my journey to work is halted by intense traffic in motorway M61 jt coming out to M65, which resulted in 1 hour delay in my arrival to work.2 bloody hours in traffic. I was wondering why there is ambulance/fire brigade/critical incidence unit bluelighted in the traffic.Little that I know there is chemical explosion in Ribbleton - tv broke down for a week & the radio aerial of car broke off.If knew, could have diverted my journey!

On arrival, found out our A&E dept is actually on standby for any casulaties from the explosion.(I actually feel quite excited about it!).Turn out there is none coming to our hospital,I think Preston might have taken the whole load.

Workwise,A&E is fun but very mentally, emotionally, physically very draining.I see a few very interesting cases. Did see an acute renal failure in severe acidosis & he has gone straight to ICU after I see him. Saw a young lady is in vegetative state after hanging herself (very sad indeed.manage to get cardiac output after CPR & atropine; but outlook is bleak).diagnosed a number of PE, later proven. One thing I noticed is how depressed young people in UK are.I remember a 13 year old girl telling me she has nothing to live for & she wakes up in the middle of night feeling so depressed and crying; every night.What can you say back to her? There is no right answer. I saw a young man who has every thing going for him until one day he has stroke, and puff, every thing is gone.

You see, I see my patients, then I see my life,and look at my college & high school friends life back in Malaysia. I think we all should count our blessings.Its hard not to feel envious or jealous of other people life.

By the way, we get a real bargain from Sainsbury's. Brand new LCD tv 20 inches for 100 quids!We are dancing, honey.