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Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Chill pill

I need a "chill" pill, or just take time off, just away from this place.

I couldn't stand anymore appalling behaviour. Its called "handbagging one workload to another". I can go on and on, but I better stop, just in case. I thought we have service committment? or let just dump it to someone else?

Its disgusting.

Some people seemed to have this superiority (or is it chauvinistic?) complex thinking that I have to wait on them hands and foot,on top of babysitting the trust grade!

Annoyed, tired, angry. Throw me some of the chill pills, will you?

Poor J, D and A. They all have to listen to my rantings this morning. The nurses have been kind at least, throwing chocolates at all directions to me. I literally warned everyone of how cranky I was.

You know what annoys me? The way he kept going about how we "muslim" etc...and why does he have to make it sound isolated and like we better than anyone else. (no integration, no effort befriend other religion. I thought we live in the UK; we don't live in a muslim country. Is it so hard to respect other beliefs??). I mean some of them doesn't even show a behaviour that earned any respect eg: calling nurses stupid,incredibly rude to our "customers", and not to mention clinical negligences (some already ended up in the court of law).

Peace!
(at least I am going out tomorrow for a farewell dinner. Italians, yummm).

Tuesday, April 28, 2009

Teaching

Oh, I am just very pleased today.

Had to give a lecture on Chronic Lymphocytic Leukaemia + Promyelocytic leukaemia during today medical meeting. I did get a little bit work-up since I never done a haematology job before; apart from occasional meeting or managed them during on-take or as ward patients. Much of the lectures material did come from British Society of Haematology plus books etc..

It went very well, and I am so pleased that most medical students,house officers and my colleagues, consultants gave a very good feedback and said I made it sound so simple, like understanding immunophenotyping and flow cytometry. J, my consultant cardiologist, as usual making jokes, saying wow, I didn't know you knew all these "dirty" names, referring to all the chemotherapy drugs name that rolls off my tongue eg: alemtuzumab, rituximab,chrombucil,fludarabine etc. Having said that, it wasn't too alien to me anyway,since I was a regular prescriber of rituximab when I did my rheumatology job.
(Really need to teach him how to make a proper joke.Its sad, I knew.)

Feel truly encouraged. I guess I should still pursue a combined teaching and clinical career.

Friday, April 24, 2009

Alpha female

Yes, I am one. Not ashamed to admit it.

D, the grouchy male colleague just laugh out loud when I told him this.He has been stressing out, bless him.I am so done with stresses.

Anyway,feel sad that my Noopy is out. At least he no longer be the receiving end of the verbal and mental abuse thrown to him by the judges (who says different things in front of the camera and off-camera).What can I say, bloody rigging the show.Still continue to be his big fan and I have got my Nooper troopers! Clef hangers rocks!

Sunday, April 19, 2009

Obsession

I think its already unhealthy.

I required daily dosage of "Anoop"icillin in the form of Facebook Group,Noop-Dog.com, Anoopdog.com.

Please don't throw him under the bus again, the inconsistent + already-rigging-the-show judges!!I will stop watching AI if he is gone by next week.

Even my consultant knows.This is what happen when three of us went out for the supposed-to-do action plan for our audit but ended stuffing our face with Chinese food like there is no tomorrow.

Embarrassing.

And the action plan is still bloody outstanding.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Sigh...

This morning standby call arrest didn't survive.Hyperkalaemic dialysis patient.

I broke the news to his wife,with the police.

I wish I could shift this cloudy mood.

Monday, April 13, 2009

The trip

It was fun. I think I did underestimate Barcelona; but what a gorgeous city!!!An architectural heaven; I was seriously mesmerized by Gaudi creations. Breathtaking and to think he got this idea in late 1800/early 1900! I did find it rather hilarious he was killed by the tram.

The beach was gorgeous.We sipped our lovely "european coffee", facing the sea, listening to the waves, watching people wave-surfing,listening to the band playing spanish music..then it started to rain. Well, it was fantastic whilst it lasted.I can totally imagine spending summer in Barcelona.

Love the street performers along the La ramblas. Make me want to salsa-dance.

We also indulged in seafood, paella, gelatos, nougats,lobsters etc. If I missed Muara Klang, I will go to Barcelona just to feast on their food. We had this lunch at this so-called Japanese Kaiten (not pure japanese, you could tell it is mixed with Chinese) and we had like 6 udang galah, 2 plates of clams,3 plates of fried squids,at least 10 pieces sushis, 2 plates of salmon sashimis,mixed olives-oil laden fried seafood and cucumber masked as courgette (tertipu betul; dahlah teringin nak makan courgette).

So much to do at this city. Want to go to the aquarium,sekali tengok panjang nak mampuih dia punya queue. Terus cancel.Pas tu pegi Barcelona stadium - have to say it is a bit crappy. My reaction was like - "you mean, that's it?". Should have gone to Tibidabo.

Transport is excellent. If you have lived in big cities, navigating through metro/tram/train/bus will be a breeze.Honest, despite the language. I love this tram stop which is called "Maria Christina".

Got tons of pictures,but until I can be bothered to learn how to post photos in blogspot, this will be it.

Back to being "coerced-swapped" on-call tomorrow.

Tuesday, April 07, 2009

Sisterhood

Interesting article in Daily Mail (urgghh, I can't still be reading the tabloids,can I?) about sisterhood.

I realise I do get on better with the boys in my job.

Mind you, having said that, I did have one of the best time of my career when I was at Liverpool Heart and Lung Hospital. All head-strong female SHOs (only one guy,hehe); such fun you guys! The cardiologists were quite baffled at the beginning when he saw all of us descended to the induction.

Sisterhood or no sisterhood, bitchiness does exists in the "guys" world too.

Just be careful about what you say,be subtle and try to be as diplomatic as you can.FYI, I don't like my current SG. He creeps the hell out of me, and I would rather dismiss him as he is well-known for his useless-ness. I mean you have to be really bad at your job to not knowing clinical indications for radiological tests.

Saturday, April 04, 2009

Temper

Yes, I am having a terible temper.

Ni kalau tuka forms lagi,memang mengamuk aku dibuatnya. Already waste 150 pages; and All-in-one printer is not as fast as a laser.

Well, Anoop better go through next week.That Matt Giraud started to annoy the hell out of men.JT wannabe - except he is less cute and less luck, and to his credit, probably as talented.

Temper, temper, goes away.

Friday, April 03, 2009

Work etc, and still obsessed

Done - my 7 in a row nights. Nothing exciting, apart from learning the H.O is quite crappy and trying to learn to live with the persistant annoyance that come from nursing staff.

Baadddd girl, this H.O of mine.Giving beta-blocker to a bronchospasm lady. The reason - trying to slow down the physiological heart rate response to coughing fit and bronchospasm?? I mean, WTF?

I swear to God this bank nurse is purposely driving me up the wall.I mean every 2 minutes, she comes asking, doctor, doctor, this and that, then come again, doctor, doctor, do this, then come again etc.... I literally say to her,"Oh my GOD, what else do you WANT now?. SO getting me on my nerve.

I thought I want the only one been driven up the wall by some of the nursing staffs. Today, when no one else around, J confided to me, the nurse L is driving him nuts with her persistent nagging and meddling.

Enuff about work. Still loving the Dawg. His voice is awesome, smooth and so RnB. Even though the judges were incredibly harsh about his "Caught Up", the more I listen to it, the better it actually sound. I literally humming the song during our post-take morning ward round. I definitely got "caught up".

American Idol is annoying because the judges purposely pimping some of the contestants and the Ford advert is absolute garbage.